So this is in-progress; I’m trying to figure out how to communicate this all.
Here’s a first draft:
Metaphysics are pretty cool
Hi, I’m david, and I like metaphysics. I think about them a lot—in fact, I’m fixated on them. I find them everywhere, as if every path leads to Rome; in every situation, I find my attention inevitably pulled to the recurring meta-patterns at play.
I think about these patterns in every single social interaction; every emotion; even in my dreams—and while this is sometimes to my detriment, every day I find myself settling further into a compounding state of Awe: which I believe to be the very essence of fulfillment.
The substrate
What is the substrate? Well, it’s this idea that there is some strange substance that permeates through everything. More specifically, it’s a substance that expresses itself both physically and spiritually. It is a flow of energy both infinitely complex and infinitely simple—paradoxically Yin, while at the same time Yang.
Now, I’m aware that this all sounds very ‘woo’—which unfortunately has this affect of pushing people away from these concepts.1 But I urge you to consider: Have you ever noticed that Everything is waves? Every ‘thing’2 seems to sit at the intersection point between many different ‘spectrums’.3 For example: Recently, I have been fascinated by the idea that: The two poles of autism are ADHD and OCD. It’s wild because I promise you, in every single situation—when you break it down to first principles—you will always find a spectrum at play.
I’m of the belief that these spectrums are observable—but not always through scientific instruments (blasphemy, I know). Oftentimes, the only way we can observe truth is through the subjective experiences of our bodies. For some, this can be a big psychological hurdle, given our culture’s obsession with rationality. But frankly, if you keep an open mind, and notice that these waves/spectrums are everywhere—it becomes impossible to ignore the underlying tautological logic of the colloquial “subjective.” Or, more simply, what we consider to be irrational is, actually, very rational.4
What’s the use?5
Ambiguity is uncomfortable to hold. The ego, our differentiating component, reeeally wants to collapse it down into its two poles. This is why people with a ‘big ego’ are often the least able to handle ambiguity.
But you can practice sitting in the middle. The Taoists call this Wu Wei (無為); a state of doing-non-doing. And it is by following your wu wei that you are able to learn the richest lessons life has to offer.
With much help, I’ve come to discover that Our purpose in life is to learn lessons—and it is from this atomic concept that everything follows suit.
When all this clicks for you, that’s where you really get pulled into realizing: there is some real, funky stuff going on in this universe.